“What is Sin?” -Reflections from Rev. Kathy Speas
Sin. No matter what our beliefs, that’s a loaded word. Given the common association of sin with pleasure, maybe I should have titled this sermon, “What Isn’t Sin?” I have never heard “sinfully delicious” used in reference to salad greens. “Sin City” is not a town known for its beautiful scenery.
Religion has been reduced to arguments over which acts are going to send us to the Fiery Place and which ones are going to win us a ticket to Cloud Nine. We want the definitive, ultimate list of Do’s and Don’ts. We struggle with deeper questions: What does it mean to violate divine law? What does it mean to be separate from God? Is sin something you do, or something you are?
How, then, do we live to overcome sin and know God? Where do we turn to understand what sin is? The Bible? Theologians? Which theologians? Mystics? Psychologists? Our parents? Judge Judy? Who can tell us the definitive truth about what sin really is? Ancient people who spoke from visions of God in the purifyingly hot desert—or modern people, who know what it means to live in today’s technological world? One thing is clear: regardless of whose truth you consider about the matter, sin is here to stay. Nobody has come up with a way to live a 100% guaranteed sin-free life.
David’s anguished lament, “For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me, against you and you only have I sinned, and done what was evil in your sight,” and Paul’s frustrated comment that “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do” are more timeless and real than any list of Do’s and Don’ts. Somehow, though, we walk around with a vague distrust of our own God-given humanity in the name of guilt and repentance. Early desert monks sought total separation from earthly concerns by retreating to dark desert caves. Luther despaired over ever being worthy of God’s grace, agonizing that no matter how hard he worked, he would never overcome sin. The fiery Puritan preacher Jonathan Edwards gives us a vision of God holding humanity between his extended thumb and forefinger over a lake if fire.
Many Christian traditions tell us us that we are doomed from the outset, and that God’s only son Jesus had to die a horrible death just for us. And even as we reject Jonathan Edwards’ and others notions of sin, we still feel guilty—about exercise, about choosing butter over Promise margarine, about that home improvement project we’ve been putting off, about how imperfect our kids are, about our feelings about certain people. One thing is clear: regardless of whose truth you consider about the matter, sin is here to stay.
But on the other hand, in an effort to reclaim the humanity for which we were created in God’s image, many in the postmodern world would advocate doing away with the whole notion of sin or wrongdoing altogether. God loves us all; don’t worry, be happy; just try not to hurt anybody, but whatever you do is OK—as long as you’re not judgmental.
Neither view provides a satisfactory answer to the question, “How, then, shall we live, in order to know God?” Either we see ourselves as sinners who can never, ever achieve the perfection demanded of us by a vengeful God, doomed to repeated failure every day, or we forget about the role of divine grace, and focus on self-development toward our own fully achievable psycho-spiritual goals instead.Swedenborg offers us a view of sin that frees us from loathing ourselves, yet holds us accountable for our lives in the eyes of God.
How often do we crowd our lives with tasks in the name of responsibility,
and then find that we don’t have time for inner peace?
Like Paul, Swedenborg sees humanity as suspended in equilibrium between good and evil. Unlike Paul, Swedenborg affirms our free will to choose either path. In Swedenborgian theology, sin is the willful appropriation of evil (“evil” being whatever is contrary to God’s creative and loving good—not just Hitler-quality evil) into our intentionality, knowingly acting only for the sake of our own self-interest. We become what we do, and we shape our spirit by how we use it in our earthly life. Swedenborg sees original sin as the denial that it is God alone who can guide us to goodness. We can’t get there from here if we leave God out of our plans. We succumb to the serpent when we knowingly separate ourselves from the power of God, and try to control the world and our lives as if we were the ultimate source of love and grace.
Swedenborg’s concept of sin presumes that we are able to know and experience God, and yet act contrary to the divine order because of the motivating power of our own self-interest. It takes two to tango, us and God, and we’ve got to let God lead the dance. We are caught between two notions of sin.
How do we know what God’s creative and loving good is, when it’s all mystery? How can our sensual human experience be sinful, when it is only through our senses that the presence of God is known? It is through our sensual physical natures that we know loving friendship, kindness among strangers, the beauty of sunsets and forests, the beauty of music and architecture, harmony, mercy, creativity, justice, the “peace which passeth all understanding.” The list goes on and on—think of all the expressions of God’s love and wisdom, and then think of what it is that keeps us from manifesting these characteristics ourselves.
How often do we crowd our lives with tasks in the name of responsibility, and then find that we don’t have time for inner peace? How often do we worry so much about the future of our fortunes that we forget all about kindness or mercy or beauty? To what degree do we feel so guilty, and expect so much of ourselves, that we stay at work instead of coming home to paint or sing or dance or love? How often do we take on more than we can handle, and weaken ourselves in the attempt to take care of everyone?
How do we know what God’s good is?
From a Swedenborgian perspective, self-denial, guilt, worry, and workaholism are sins to the extent that they ground us in our self-interest, instead of opening us up to the love of God and our neighbor. It is not what we do, but the spirit in which we do it, that makes for sin. As Swedenborgian theologian George Dole says, “The road to Hell is not paved with good intentions, it’s paved with unexamined intentions.” Philanthropy can be a sin if we are generous only to get our name in the newspaper.
Ambition can manifest God’s love if it is used in the service of faith and love. It is our task to open our hearts to God, so that our actions may make God’s love visible, so that perhaps even our sins may be used by God to good ends. You can’t think about sin without thinking about redemption. In Swedenborgian terms, awareness of sin begins the cycle of repentance, reformation, and regeneration. Repentance begins with wanting to know something beyond the worldly desires that trap us in a vicious cycle of “looking for love in all the wrong places,” as the song says. We are stung with the hot shame of realizing that we have done.
It is something Sin is evidence that God is reaching out to each of us to welcome as a special invitation from God to choose God over yourself! The German poet Rilke gives us the image of continuing on a path by “being defeated by successively greater and greater opponents.” The Persian poet Rumi says, “An empty mirror and your worst destructive habits, that’s when the real making begins, that’s what art and crafting are . . . Don’t turn your head, keep looking at the bandaged place. That is where the light enters you.”
So it is with sin. Once we have overcome one tendency to cling to our self-interest, we are faced with another, subtler temptation. Yet as we overcome greater and greater temptations, we are led to greater and greater joys. And it never ends.
According to Swedenborg, even the angels fall into the trap of self-interest, feel remorse, and have the chance to choose God over themselves yet again. So what is sin? You know, in your heart of hearts, exactly what sin is for you. I can’t tell you what sin is, because I don’t live your life, and my path to God is not your path to God. Your sins will change as God coaxes you onward to master the claim that self (sin) has on you right now. But you know what sin is. You know that you know what sin is.